I did it anyway

I’m complete and content. Just because I’m an alchemist doesn’t mean I don’t feel. I am human. I’m a human having a human experience.

Let me just jump right into it. My heart was ripped out of my chest last year. I was yearning for love, that wasn’t being reciprocated. I felt so alone, sad, and abandoned, but I now know I had to feel that pain in order to feel someone else’s. I believe the abandoned story is an old, family karmic hold. So, I sit here so grateful to have had the chance to experience all that I did because it made me better. I’m a better human to have gone through such pain and judgment. I was finally able to break the block because I was willing to do the hard work and take a real hard look at myself. People will leave your life and it’s actually okay. Keep moving forward and watch what life has in store for you. The universe will always provide for you. You will prevail! No one has the power over you. You hold the keys to succeed.

What a magical breakthrough. 

To be loved unconditionally is such an amazing gift. I feel gifted. I feel such amplified love from all angles of my life. So I’m here to tell you, that those rough spaces in the corners of your life are truly a blessing. A blessing in disguise. And if you get triggered by this article, maybe you have something inside that needs healing too. 

What got me through this corner of my life:

• Self care; repeat
• Peloton 
• My tribe
• My chickens 
• Meditation (even on those days that I didn’t want to look at me, I did it anyway)
• Yoga 

I faced some really great moments with myself chastising my inner child. 

That little girl in me always wins. I try to come up with a really good argument, but she always sets me straight. She helps me breathe and really take a good look at my life. She reminds me how lucky I am. She points at things and tells me, “see, you can see that bird and hear it sing”! 

My chickens; they really do heal you know!

I’m so grateful for them. I tell them every night when I close their door, how grateful I am for them and thank them for the most beautiful eggs they provide my family. Those little lights of mine! 

Goodbye heaviness, good by shame, and goodbye guilt; you no longer serve me! 

It really awakens the spirit and you can feel the joy of what a freeing experience this is and doing the right thing. It’s easy to look the other way instead of looking within yourself. Or to blame others. It’s easy to self project. It takes real courage to admit you’re wrong and move on from it. I would rather deal with whatever comes my way and vibrate higher from it.

Stay true to yourself.

Don’t second guess yourself.  Stay in your stance. And don’t ever let someone dim your light. Be BOLD. 

Between family, my tribe, meditation, yoga, a rekindled relationship with my oldest sister, and the best company to work at, I’m golden. I’m so charged up. Nothing can stop me now. What a kismet feeling. Talk about a heart-opening experience. I was completely cracked open, and I had no choice but to take a really good look at myself and just feel into it…. What an amplified experience. 

Be the soul in every room you walk into! 

In a comfortable state of gratitude, 

KERRY